They
had just celebrated their 39th anniversary in April
when
Bill went for his annual checkup. Always in perfect
health,
he was unprepared for what the doctor found.
Symptoms
Bill had ignored as "old age" led to questions,
palpation's,
more questions, and finally instructions for
a battery
of tests.
"Just
to be on the safe side," the doctor said. When Bill
took
the news home to Constance, she refused to consider
that
it could be something serious.
Fortunately,
it was April and the gardens beckoned. There was
more
than enough work needed to prepare the beds for the coming season, and
they threw themselves into the now-familiar yearly routine. They spent
their days, as always, surrounded by trays of flowers and bags of mulch,
wielding their favorite trowels.
As the
summer progressed, 30 years of gardening rewarded them with a showplace
of color. Benches and swings were placed amid the bounty of flowers, and
they spent nearly every evening during the summer relaxing and basking
in the beauty.
As they
worked, Constance began to notice a subtle change in Bill. He seemed to
tire more easily, had difficulty rising from his knees, and had little
appetite. By the time the test results were in, she was no longer so sure
of a good prognosis.
When
the doctor ushered them into his office, she knew. His demeanor was too
professional, too unlike the friend they had known and trusted for so many
years. There was no easy way to say it. Bill was dying, with so little
hope of curing his illness that it would be kinder to not even try. He
had perhaps six months left, time enough to put his house in order, but
little time for anything else.
They
decided he would stay at home, with help from visiting nurses and hospice
when the time came. Their children were both far away, one in Oregon and
the other in Chicago. They came for extended visits, but with jobs and
children, neither could come permanently. So Bill and Constance spent the
ending time as they had spent the beginning time, alone together. Only
now they had their beloved gardens, a great comfort to them both for that
entire summer.
By September,
Bill was fading fast and they both knew the end was near. For some reason
Constance couldn't understand, he seemed to be pushing her to get out more.
He urged her to call old friends and have lunch, go shopping, see a movie.
She resisted until he became so agitated that she conceded and began making
her calls. Everyone was more than willing to accompany her, and she found
she did take some comfort in talking over lunch or during the long ride
to the mall.
Bill
passed away peacefully in October, surrounded by his family. Constance
was inconsolable. No amount of knowing could have prepared her for the
emptiness she felt. Winter descended upon her with a vengeance. Suddenly
it seemed dark all the time. Then the holidays came, and she went to Oregon
for Thanksgiving and to Chicago for Christmas. The house was cold and empty
when she returned. She wasn't quite sure how she could go on, but somehow
she did.
At long
last, it was April again, and with April came the return to longer and
warmer days. She would go from window to window looking out at the yard,
knowing what needed to be done, but not really caring if she did it or
not.
Then,
one day, she noticed something different about the gardens. They were coming
to life sooner than they had in the past. She went out and walked all around
and through the beds. It was daffodils. Hundreds and hundreds and hundreds
of daffodils. She and Bill had never put many spring plants in their gardens.
They so enjoyed the colors of summer that they had only a few spring daffodils
and hyacinths scattered here and there.
'Where
did they come from?' she wondered as she walked. Not only did the blooms
completely encircle each bed, they were also scattered inside, among the
still-dormant summer plants. They appeared in groups all over the lawn,
and even lined the driveway to the street. They ringed the trees and they
lined the foundation of the house. She couldn't believe it. Where on earth
had they come from?
A few
days later she received a call from her attorney. He needed to see her,
he said. Could she come to his office that morning? When Constance arrived,
he handed her a package with instructions not to open it until she returned
home. He gave no other explanation.
When
she opened the package, there were two smaller packages inside. One was
labeled "Open me first." Inside was a video cassette. Suddenly Bill appeared
on the screen, talking to her from his favorite chair, dressed not in pajamas
but in a sweater and slacks. "My darling Constance," he began, "today is
our anniversary, and this is my gift to you." He told her of his love for
her. Then he explained the daffodils.
"I know
these daffodils will be blooming on our anniversary, and will continue
to do so forever," Bill said. "I couldn't plant them alone, though." Their
many friends had conspired with Bill to get the bulbs planted. They had
taken turns last fall getting Constance out of the house for hours at a
time so the work could be done.
The second
package held the memories of all those friends who so generously gave of
their time and energies so Bill could give her his final gift. Photographs
of everyone came spilling out, images captured forever of them working
in the garden, laughing, taking turns snapping pictures and visiting with
her beloved husband, who sat bundled in a lawn chair, watching.
In the
photo Constance framed and put by her bed, Bill is smiling at her and waving
his trowel.
~ by~
Nicolle
Woodward